I've been trying to be upbeat, but I just can’t shake the blues. So, today's song will reflect my mood: Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd.
I picked this song because whenever I close my eyes and listen to this song, I get chills down my spine. It is just one of those song that breaks you down to tears before any words are even said, it's a reminder of all you've been through with that special person.
This song reminds me, that sometimes, just sometimes, songs come from the heart, and not from the wallet, I feel like it is the materialization of my thoughts.
Pink Floyd, Wish You Were Here (1975)
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
This song has a deep effect over me, especially during this tough time. All I can do is think that: I tooked him for granted, and now.. look at me. Miserable, wipping around.. why? Because of my silly fears.
I had it all, and I've lost it. What am I complaining about? I caused my own disgrace. What was I thinking? That he would wait for me forever? Of course not, he got fed up! Fed up of my insecurities, of my hesitation and indecision. Fed up of me bitching him around and treating him like shit. His decision only prooves one thing: that he is wise. But I can't help it, feeling crappy all day long, because, he was the one, and I blew it.
xoxo, Lucy